I love my e-mail and blogging so much that I almost feel like it's consuming me. I just need to take it out of my life for a little while and get some perspective on things.
I don't think there is anything wrong with spending time on the computer. In fact, I have built so many friendships through e-mail and I am so grateful for that. Lately though, I feel like certain areas of my life are falling to the wayside. Often I choose to sit at the computer when I know that I should be doing so many other things like; spending time with my children and husband, spending time in the word, getting to bed at a descent hour, starting supper earlier, exercising...and the list goes on. My life is out of balance and I don't like it.
I've decided to abstain from e-mail and blogging all day, but allow myself about 30 minutes to verify my e-mail every evening. I will not be blogging, reading blogs or commenting on blogs during this time.
During this time of fasting, I also want to concentrate on the many areas in my life that need healing.
1) My struggle with food and binging
2) Anger.
I so desperately need God's love to infiltrate every area of my life. I take life a little too seriously sometimes, but...it's more than that. I want to love. I want to be loving and kind. Loving my children is so easy. Loving my husband is easy too, but I sometimes take my anger or frustrations out on him. Loving my daycare kids as I love my own children is a challenge. It's very hard. I'm not sure how or when this has happened but I feel as though my heart has hardened and it's just been more difficult to love lately. I want to love but, I don't know, I get moody and irritable -- often. I want a soft heart. I need more of God's love to work through all of me, and for this, I need to spend time with God. And ultimately I cannot do that if I am always on the computer.
So this is a good thing. I will miss my e-mail, blogging, responding to & reading all of your blogs and comments MORE than you can possibly know.
I'll be back on February 5th!
Love,
Tracy
. . .
1 Corinthians 13
LOVE
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
6 comments:
Oh Dearest Tracy you are not alone in your balancing girl. I have been praying for God to guide me to how to "fit it all in" "in His ways"
I think what you are doing by taking a break is a great way to clear your mind and get yourself balanced.
I beleive I speak for more than myself when I say we will miss you and we will look forward to your return and we are so pleased that you are keeping yourself and your family healthy and balanced.
Never forget you are loving even when you do not feel it. God will show you just how loving you are!
And God is a God of order and look at what you are doing taking a break to get things in order. That is an act of love!
Have a great and restful rebalancing!
e-see you whenever.
Got to go and get some of my stuff in order too.
Peace and blessings I pray to you and yours in Jesus' Holy name:
Donna
Tracy,
I know exactly what you're saying. I have had moments of spending more time on the computer and making it a priority over other things. I too am struggling with eating and anger(taking things out on people I love)...let's pray for each other : )
Love,
Carrie
Tracy,
I respect you so much for doing this. Enjoy every minute of it. It will be a struggle not to check your blog or email I know you can do it and it will bear much fruit in your life.
I wish I would have read your blog before I sent you that huge email:)
Hi Trace! I miss you and I love you! Sorry that I never post! Love Angexo
Miss you! Hope things are great
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